Mother Angel

In life, we need the unconditional love from others to help us grow. This love is the fuel that will help a child mature to an adult. I used to think that once you are an adult that you are able to navigate life on your own and that parents have done their obligations on raising you to know how to live in this world.

Like many things in this lifetime, I was wrong. As a child, my mother was always there for me to make sure I had everything I needed every day like a lunch for school and a good night kiss. My mother worked so hard to ensure I was able to focus at school. It was her dream for me to be educated and grow up to become a person that would help others. Every night, she would whisper words of encouragement, reminding me of her vision for me. More often than not, tears would flow down her face as she held me and gave me my daily good night wishes. These are the memories that are so dear to me. No matter how good or bad her day was, she would always be there to tuck me into bed and share her loving wishes. I am so thankful for this memory. It gave me the motivation to wake up every day and work hard at school. I wanted to make her happy and proud. I wanted to help others. It was her love that fueled my compassion.

As I reached adulthood, I soon began to realize that the reality of life was not the fantasy living in my head. I had no idea the challenges of being an adult. I thought everything was suppose to work out the way I had planned – graduate high school, graduate college, get a good job, earn money, start a family. Needless to say, I was not ready to face the challenges of adulthood. Obstacles were flying towards me at light speed. I thought I could be like Luke Skywalker and navigate this universe with ease using the Force. Again, I was living in my fantasy and unfortunately, I was not a Jedi in this game of life.

Through all the years of heartbreaks, my mom was always there for me. It’s interesting to discover that she has parent me more now than before. I welcome it with open arms. At first, I felt ashamed that I would even ask my mom for help. Wasn’t I suppose to be old enough to take care of myself? I thought so and more often than not, I needed support to get through life’s obstacles.

Today is Mother’s Day. In my world, every day is Mother’s Day. My mom is an angel to many. She has a gift of unconditionally loving others. I am blessed to have such a loving mother. This song truly embodies how she has been apart of my life. Love you Mom! Thank you for all you have done! I am so blessed and lucky to have you as my mom. I hope that all your wishes come true and that you continue to dream big!

Love,
Alan

****** Lyrics – Sarah McLachlan – Angel *******

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There’s vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don’t make no difference
Escaping one last time
It’s easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

3 Comments

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3 Comments on “Mother Angel
  1. Dear Alan!

    Today many children are celebrating and honoring their mothers. I’m one of the lucky mom who has all her children come around. I’m so blessed to have all wonderful loving kindness and smart children.
    THANK YOU Alan!
    You just pick the right song I used to listen to this song over and over 1998 this song came to be # one top 10.I almost lost my life at that time. Annah was always telling me: mom you can’t die, you bring us here to this country, you are the only family that we have. She was right!From that day I start to pray for my Angel to come to rescue me. I gave myself to the Lord.I have FAITH and believe that my Angel will come.
    My dream come true God has send me many Angels to help me go through my rough time and they are still here put smile on my face.
    So you know I’m here to be one of your angel. I love all of my children dearly and many more children that I have been around and always want to do more of what I can do for all of you.
    Mother’s Day is always my favorite day.

    May God bless you and be strong.

    Love

    Mom

  2. Beautiful Alan…simply beautiful…need a Kleenex now. I hope my children will say the same about me :) Good reminder for me to keep telling my kids my hopes & dreams for them….

    “Do all the good you can, in all the ways you can to all the people you can as long as ever you can.”
    ~John Wesley

    This includes being good to themselves as well :) You are such an inspiration to others…the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree now does it? Lol Big hugs to you and your Momma!

    • Thanks for the comment. I love the quote. You are such an inspiration and I am grateful to always hear from you. The thoughts and comments from you really trigger the spark in me. There are times where I need a spark and you always seem to know when to charge it.

      I know your children will be proud of you and will always love you. Keep your eyes on your dreams. The more your children see you love life through the thick and thin, the more great and positive memories they will carry with them in life. They will value you more than you can imagine. This is how I have come to realize how my mom was able to give me her best no matter how she felt inadequate because she didn’t have a formal education. She didn’t need to go to school to learn how to love, she just needed to love.

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