Last week I attended a funeral of a close family friend. If you don’t know me well already, I was very emotional. I started reflecting about my life. What would happen if my closest friends and family members died? How would I feel? Will I be prepared? What would happen if I died?
My emotions went through a roller coaster ride – up and down, loops and twists. I am sad. I am happy. I am scared. I am nervous. I am sad again. I am happy again. I am scared again. I am nervous again. And of course I cried tears of sadness and joy.
I was very impressed at how my friend was able to compose herself and delivery a very resounding eulogy about her dad. You can see all her pain and joy as the tears flowed down her face. I was so moved by her words and felt a great presence of love and comfort as she said goodbye. She loved her father greatly and it really showed.
And of course, I cried again. This time, I cried thinking about my turn to tell the world how much I love my mom and dad as they ascend to the next life. My parents gave me my life and I am eternally blessed and grateful for this life.
Later, I found myself discussing with my mother about her funeral plans. My heart skipped a beat. I just didn’t want to discuss this at this very moment. Yet, I knew that death is inevitable and I needed to be prepared for it. It was obvious that my mom was ready to journey to the next life when she dies. I admired her for her courage as she gave me a detailed plan on how to handle her funeral arrangements.
I told her how much I loved her and that I will do what she asks. It was a very painful experience for me to finish this discussion. I just couldn’t imagine this happening and I prayed that it will be a long long time before the day comes.
Life will end. That is one thing we all know for sure. I am thankful for my friend and my mom to show me courage in the face of death. It was a lesson that I needed to learn. I am again reminded how great friends and family are. Remember to live this life to the fullest and be the best person you can possibly be. Life will always be “Laosy” for me and I will do my best to be the best son, brother, uncle, nephew, friend, parent, lover and friend to all. I would like to tell all my friends and family that I love them so much and appreciate everything they have done for me. They are truly the best!